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A Struggle For The Future

He rode into the place he called home. The people flocked around to welcome their favourite son. He was back after many months. The Palace was decked up to welcome back their Royal family. The other queens were all dressed up, hoping their king would catch a glimpse of them. Sajja Bai, the second queen, was putting on her maang tika.
" You look beautiful Ranisa!" Her maid complimented.
" But he will never look at me, because Dheerbai will be there." There was a hint of sadness as well as jealousy.

In a bigger chamber somewhere in the same corridor another queen was doing shringaar. But she was disturbed. After a long try, she had managed to send the crown prince away, and now he was coming back again.
" Ranisa, Ranaji has arrived at the door." A daasi came in.
" Then why are you standing there? Go get me an aarthi that quick!" She snapped.
Unlike the Maharani, she was vain and manipulative. She wore a plastic smile before stepping out of her room.

At the palace door, She stood with the Arthi thaal, before all the other queens. Rana Udai Singh smiled at his beautiful wife. She did aarthi and smiled, " Welcome back."
Kunwar Pratap stepped behind Udai Singh, managing a smile. At first glance, she could tell something was amiss between the father and son. She hid a satisfying smile.

" Khamma Gani Chotima."
" Gani Khamma Kunwarsa."
He walked in past her, smiling a little at Sajja Bai. Maharani Jaivanta Bai came and smiled at Sajjabai.
" How have you been?"
" Tell me about the trip Jija, how was the wedding?" She asked excitedly.
" Come to my room Behena, we need to talk." Jaivanta Bai walked past Dheer bai as if she was non-existent, with Sajjabai following her in.

Pratap walked into his room, for the first time, his own room couldn't comfort him. There was a war in his mind. He had to strategically win this. The opponents were strong and sly.
" Dadabhai!" He turned around with a smile. His sisters Maan and Chand came and hugged him.
" We are so happy you are back."
" Me too, how have you been?"
" We are good. Daajiraj is calling you to his chambers."
" Why?"
" We don't know."

He stepped into the master bedroom and found Ranima, Majhli Maa and Choti Maa there. He knew in a second what this was about. Sajja Bai smiled at him. Udai Singh exchanged a look at Dheerbai. She cleared her throat.
" Kunwarsa, I heard that you have chosen some girl."
" Her name is Ajabde. " Jaivanta said firmly.
" A Samanth Putri."
Pratap stood in silence.
" Kunwar Pratap you are too naive." Dheerbai continued. " We should have never let you go alone. Those people trapped you. They are after your money and status."
" Dheer Bai ji, You are insulting people you don't know." Jaivanta snapped angrily.
" Jija, he is a child, but you? Can't you see what we can do? Have you ever heard a Rajput prince marry a commoner?"
" I don't think in any way Ajabde is lesser than any princess as far as her sanskaar and discipline goes. And as far as Kunwar Pratap is concerned, he is not the child who used to blindly listen to you Dheerbai ji..." Jaivanta Bai was firm on the last part.
" Bas Kijiye!"

Kunwar Pratap broke his silence. This was his family. Divided into two on every issue however big or small. He felt trapped, difficulty breathing, he heaved a sigh and looked at Dheerbai.
" Noone trapped me Chotima, I chose her. I want to be with her. It is my request to give your opinion on her only after you meet her. And keep aside her status and see her as a human being. "
Udai Singh was about to say something but was stopped by Dheerbai.
" Okay Kunwar Pratap, We will go to Bijolia, I will test her myself."
" You are more than welcome to do that Chotima" He smiled sarcastically.

He walked out of the room and was running through the corridor. He needed to write to her about these developments. He was a bit scared knowing Dheerbai ji, on how Ajabde would tackle her.
" Dadabhai!" The call stopped him. He turned around and hugged his brother tight.
" Bhai Shakti! I haven't seen you in such a long time."
" Yes, how was your trip... ohh I heard!" He had a smile, teasing his elder brother. Pratap looked at him with a serious face and they were interrupted by Rawat Chundawat ji.
" Where is Ranaji?"
" In his Kakhsh, is something wrong?" Pratap asked worried.
" Yes, come with me." The princes followed the Rawat back to their father's chambers.

" What is it Rawatji?"
"There is a village 20 km from Bijolia, a horrible storm struck there and people lost lives, homes and property. I have come to ask you for help. We need men and aids as well." Rawatji explained. Bijolia... the name is coming up too much in the past few days. Udai Singh was visibly disturbed.
"Take what you need."
" We will go with you!" Kunwar Shakti spoke before Pratap.
" Okay, I will make arrangements to leave immediately."

The princes went to inform their mothers. Udai Singh was lost in thoughts.
" Is Something wrong Ranaji?"
" Yes, I mean... You are like family Rawatji... I won't hide from you."
" What is it?"
" Kunwar Pratap wants to marry Rao Ramrakh Punwar's daughter."
" The Samant Of Bijolia?" Rawat ji was not shocked. He knew his prince followed his heart.
" Yes, and Jaivanta Bai is with him too. It's not that I didn't like the Girl but she is a commoner."
" I understand your dilemma, Hukum."
" Dheerbai is against it too, it's about our reputation. But we all know Kunwar Pratap."
" Yes, he can die to get what he wants. Mewar can not lose him. Not with Akbar around. The only thing that makes Akbar scared is Kunwarsa."
" What do you suggest?" Udai Singh asked helplessly.
" Give him what he wants Ranaji, eventually he is a human being who seeks personal happiness."

Rawat Ji's words were on Udai Singh's mind. We can not lose Kunwar Pratap. He was in his room absent-minded before he called in his wives.
" We are leaving for Bijolia."
" But Ranaji Kunwar Pratap is not here yet, let him come back."
" Jija, He is near Bijolia only. Write to him to meet us there. By the time he will reach, we will be there a day or so." Dheerbai was looking for this opportunity. One day alone with Ajabde her job will be done. A reluctant Jaivanta Bai agreed.

Meanwhile, Kunwar Pratap, Kunwar Shakti and Rawat Ji arrived at the village. It looked like a battle had been fought there. Very few houses stood firm, others were devastated. Lives were lost, and people were homeless. Mothers and wives were crying over dead bodies, it was a horrible sight. Kunwar Pratap ordered his troops to start the rebuilding activities and put Rawatji on its head. Kunwar Shakti was already busy arranging medical aid for the poor and injured. Kunwar Pratap heard a villager say many orphans had now lost their homes and families and were living in the village ashram. Kunwar Pratap decided to visit the poor children.

" So, Bappa Rawal founded our kingdom, he was alone, without family or friends, but Eklinhji helped him. So we see, when we are alone, we always have Eklingji." 
The children were gathered around to hear this mesmerizing tale of hardship and hope. Kunwar Pratap stopped at the voice. For a moment he thought he had gone mad, imagining things. He looked at the clearing where the children sat listening to the stories.

" Ajabde!" His voice startled her. " Kunwarsa You are here?" She was shocked. A smile broke on his face.
" Ranaji send us."
" Us?"
" Yes... Woh..."
" Dadabhai!" Kunwar Shakti came up with something but stopped looking at Ajabde.
" He is my brother, Kunwar Shakti."
" Gani Khamma Kunwarsa." She folded her hands. Shakti looked at his brother clueless.
" This is Ajabde, Ramrakh ji's Daughter."
" Ajabde Bha... Baisa!"
Shakti exclaimed as Ajabde turned clueless to Pratap. You told him? was the look on her face.
" So, you are here because we are?" Shakti gave a weird smile.
" No No here for the last two days, Daata was unwell, he send me for help, I am helping the orphans here..." She was explaining as Shakti looked at her amused.
" It's okay Baisa,  Breath! Dadabhai we need more medicines." Kunwar Pratap was thinking from where.
" There is another village a few miles away, they can help I am sure."
" yes, Dadabhai you go there at dawn."
They were leaving when Ajabde said, " Where are you staying?"
" At the khema." Shakti frowned.
" Come with me, I have a hut here, the villagers gave me." She offered to a much pleased Shakti.
" I will go get Rawat Ji."
Kunwar Pratap walked away with a smile.

At the hut, Ajabde was cooking while the Daasi accompanying her was cleaning the empty room. It was for the guests. Kunwar Pratap's horse came up to the hut along with the other two. He got down as she came out.
" This is Rawat ji."
" Khamma Gani, I have heard so much about you Rawat ji, Daata always talks of you." She touched his feet.
" Gani Khamma Ajabde Baisa. Your father tells a lot about you too..." 
" Padhariye."

The smell of Khichdi made Shakti hungry. He said in a childish eagerness, " Aree wah Khichdi!"
Ajabde smiled as she served them. Rawat ji praised her cooking skills. He saw Pratap beam in pride. He hoped and prayed that Rani Dheerbai didn't snatch away that smile.

" Am keeping Sarang here at the shed, feed him once, we will be back in the evening." Kunwar Pratap was very particular about Sarang.
" Don't worry Kunwarsa he will be taken care of." She assured.
Kunwar Pratap stepped out with the two but after a few minutes walk he noticed his sword missing, he must have left it in the hut. He went back.

The silent hut was filled with a voice. He stepped at the window overlooking the shed where Sarang stood with Ajabde.
" Sarang, Eat! I am Kunwar Pratap Singh, I am ordering you, Eat!" She was holding a twig like a sword in front of Sarang, trying to imitate his master as he ate.
" What is this? Even Akbar is scared of me and you are not?!" 
Her childish play, the twinkle in her eyes made him smile. He slowly walked up behind her, carefully, not letting her realize his presence.
" I only fear Eklingji, Ranima... and Ajabde!" She continued in a thick voice. He just couldn't control his laughter. It startled her.
" Hahahaa! What are you doing? When do I talk like that?"
She was taken aback, visibly scared.
" You... Here... Woh... I... Shamma..." She fumbled. He gave a serious look.
" You think I am scared of you?"
Her eyes widened.
" No. No... No... I was ... I am so sorry." She looked like she was going to cry.
"Let's see who is scared of whom." He stepped forward as the twig fell from her hand, scaring her. He laughed again!
" Ohh Ajabde, look at you, you were about to cry."
" No, I was not."
" You were scared."
" No."
" Yes."
" No!" 
" Dadabhai..." Shakti thought he was interrupting something. They stood so close. Ajabde moved away, inside the hut.
" Ji?" Pratap looked at Shakti who was beaming at him.
" Woh..." He had totally forgotten what he wanted to say.
"Let's go." Shakti followed his brother out.

That evening Pratap sat patting Sarang, his job here was done, and Rawatji could take care of the rest. Shakti wanted to go back to Chittor. Only after Pratap bought the medicines. A letter in his name arrived from Ranima.

" Pratap, Dheerbai has convinced Ranaji to visit Bijolia immediately, we are leaving, with Sajjabai. After your work, come to Bijolia." 

Pratap immediately got up and searched for Ajabde. She was in the kitchen making dinner.
" Ajabde, we need to talk."
" What is it? " She asked worried. He handed her the letter.
" Chotima?" She asked. He nodded. They stared at each other in silence. Pratap held her hand in his.
" Are you ready for the war?"
" I think I am." 
" But first I will go take the medicines then we leave for Bijolia." 

Kunwar Shakti heard the plans and decided to play Cupid.
" Why don't you and Baisa go to the village tomorrow? You take the medicine, I will meet you at the outskirts in the evening and by night you will be in Bijolia."
Pratap understood what his brother was trying to do.
" No No... " Came a fumbled reply from Ajabde. " I have sent a letter to bring my Palanquin. They won't arrive until evening."
" So you go on the horse!" Shakti's suggestion surprised her. " I will bring the palanquin to you at the outskirts of the village once they arrive. That way you don't have to do the same journey twice!"
" Me? Horse?"
" She doesn't know how to ride a horse!" Pratap said plainly.
" Teach her! You won't leave before mid-day, teach her the basics and you will be there." Shakti was adamant.

That evening in her warrior outfit she stood in front of Sarang. He had decided to train her with Sarang since they knew each other, a new horse would be more difficult.
" Get on the horse!" It was too tall for her. She wouldn't give that excuse. She tried thrice.
" You need a push?" He offered.
" No, I will do it." She insisted.
Losing her balance she fell as he caught her, inches from the ground. She held his neck with both hands in fear as he smiled seeing her scared face.
" I..." She started as he put her down.
" This is impossible, has to be another way..." he concluded.
She stood silent like she had failed him.
" We can ride on Sarang till the next village."
" We?"
" Yes we, you and me on Sarang. " He pointed.
" But... "
" You can't ride a horse, you can't ride with me, you can't get your palanquin. What is the solution here?" He asked staring at her. He nodded his head and was about to live.
" I will ride, with you." Came a soft reply as his face lit up with a smile.
" We leave after our first meal then."
She nodded.

She sat uncomfortably in front of him, his chest brushed her side. She was nervous. She was wearing a lehenga, sitting with both her feet on one side. Her face hidden in the dupatta she could see his hands, the horse's ears and a little road ahead. Was it him or the horse that made her nervous, she had no clue. As they rode out of the village he increased the speed, making her close her eyes in fear. She caught his hands afraid she might fall. He smiled a little.
" Ajabde Baisa, is this the limit of your bravery? Then you forget facing Dheer Bai ji." He taunted making her angry.
" Who said I am scared?"
" Your Hands. " He chuckled. She quickly removed them.

After a day at the village, they were ready to leave. Kunwar Shakti was there with the palanquin and guards. They bid him goodbye. Pratap hugged his brother.
" Will meet soon." Shakti smiled at Ajabde.

Meanwhile, Mewar's Royal Family Had Arrived at Bijolia. Raoji and Hansa Bai welcomed them cluelessly.
Udai Singh made an excuse that they were visiting the temple nearby and hence came to stay.
Dheerbai asked, " Where are your daughters?" with a smile.
Hansa replied. " Ajab is not home, Ratan is coming."
" Not home? Where is she?" This time it was Jaivanta Bai.
" She had gone to help the villagers after the storm." 
Jaivanta's face lit up, " Pratap is there too, maybe they will come back together."
Dheerbai was disappointed as Sajja and Jaivanta exchanged a smile.

Raoji sat in his room wondering. Ajabde was with Kunwar Pratap. Her care for him hadn't skipped his eyes. His heart was sinking. He feared his family's reputation and his daughter's heartbreak. She was dreaming of the impossible. His thoughts travelled to the day Kunwar Pratap was almost dead. His blood smeared her hands dress and.... his thoughts made his eyes cold. His blood was on her forehead. His wife always said matches were made in heaven, the practical warrior and father in him refused to believe such things. He spends a sleepless night wishing Ajabde to be back soon, safely.

At Dawn, Dheerbai's sleep broke at the sound of the Nagada. She growled in anger, " Now what is going on?" She stopped passing by the maid.
" Kunwar Pratap and Baisa had arrived." 
All through the journey he had ridden beside her palanquin talking about everything, his family, his sisters, his wars and the books she read, of Ratan and Bijolia. Now they came up to Hansa Bai, keeping their distance. Jaivanta hugged Ajabde.
" Come with me, I want you to meet someone."
Ajabde followed her to the guest quarters.
" Sajja, this is Ajabde." Sajja Bai got up and looked at the calm face. Ajabde touched her feet. She hugged the girl surprising her.
" Jija she is just like you!" Jaivanta nodded in approval.
Sajja Bai took out a gold bangle from her jewellery box and gave it to Ajabde who looked at Ranima.
" Take it, it's Shagun, for seeing you." Sajja Bai insisted.
" Arree, let the marriage be fixed first." Jaivanta smiled as Ajabde turned red.
" Jija, we chose our bride. We are blessing her, no one can stop this marriage." Sajja Bai smiled in confidence. " You won't let her win right Ajabde?" Her eyes were hopeful. Pratap interrupted and was surprised to find Ajabde there. He looked away.
" Woh... Majhli Maa..."
" What happened Kunwar Pratap? You never come to my room in Chittor and today as soon as she is here..." Both turned red.
" Majhli Maa sa... " He continued.
" I have to go." She interrupted and their eyes met.
" Aree, you stay Ajabde, I have a lot of things to tell you. Am sure you don't know Kunwarsa's stories... Jija Remember that time Shakti and he was almost caught by the Afghans stealing mangoes..." 
" Bhai Shakti said he is going back to Chittor, I will take your leave." He went away without even listening as Sajja Bai sat with Ajabde.

Dheerbai was moving towards the room Pratap came out of. She stood in the doorway, watching the three giggle like a unit.
" Jija..." Her appearance itself drained the smile from their faces.
" Come in Dheerbai ji."
She walked in scrutinizing the girl before her. Simple, calm, there was an aura of goodness around her. Just like the Maharani. But for Dheerbai she was another shield in Pratap's life.
" This is Ajabde."
" Gani Khamma." Ajabde touched her feet.
" It's okay." She didn't bless. " Do you know why we are here, Ajabde?" She was straight to business.
" I think I do, Choti Rani Sa. But you can clear my doubt and tell me." She was quick with words. Dheerbai hated her already.
" You have to do some things like I say..."
" As you wish Ranisa."
" First start by cooking the lunch, 56 dishes, for everyone, from the Royal Family to the Daasis, alone."
Jaivanta Bai interrupted, and Dheerbai stopped her. " Ranaji told me I can test her."
" As u wish." Ajabde was still with a confident smile as she walked out.

In the kitchen Ajabde was sitting worried, she had shown her confident self to the opponent but now she had to do this task but how? The Daasis helped cut the vegetables and keep the cereals but she had to cook alone. She started with the rice, three types, and six dishes of rice. She said in her mind. Suddenly she heard footsteps behind her.
" Ekanth." His voice scared the maids.
" Kunwarsa..."
" I am so sorry Ajabde, she is giving you impossible things..."

" It's okay, it will all be done, don't worry she reassured."
" Let me help." This made her laugh.
" You don't know what's what around the kitchen, how will you help?"
" I don't know, I want to help."
" Then go and let me work. " He looked at her helplessly as she smiled, indicating him to leave.

Since dawn, Ajabde was in the kitchen till past noon. It was time for lunch. Rana Udai Singh and Raoji were shocked to see so many different things on their plates. Kunwar Pratap smiled at his mother. Dheerbai was in shock. She had underestimated her opponent. This time she had to do something bigger. Udai Singh couldn't help but praise Ajabde as she looked at Dheerbai with a smile that made her fume. In his mind, Udai Singh had made his decision.

The next day Pratap had to go to Kelwara with Raoji and Rana Udai Singh to check on the Bhils. Early at dawn Ajabde cooked and packed food for the journey. They hadn't talked since the kitchen but his smile was enough to praise her food. She rushed out as they were about to leave.
" Daata!"
" Ajabde? What are you doing up so early?" Udai Singh was shocked as well as he looked at Pratap who knew his Ajabde too well to be shocked.
" I cooked for your journey, here. " She handed her father the food. She watched them leave as he turned back at her with a smile.

Dheerbai was waiting for this moment. She asked Ajabde to make a chunri for her. Ajabde was up too the work all day and at last satisfied she took it to Dheerbai. Although Dheerbai liked the chunri she threw it on the floor.
" The Royal family doesn't wear such cheap designs, we are not poor Samanths." Ajabde was angry. She picked up the work and said, " I will do it again Ranisa."
" You? Again? No, thank you. You, Samanth people, have such poor choices, not your fault though, it's in your blood to be low class. Your mother's clothes and father's behaviour say so. He talks like he owns the place!" Ajabde had heard enough.
" Ranisa you are insulting my family without a reason."
"Ohh, you want a reason? You trapped Kunwarsa! Jija can't see it, I can! You are after his status."
" Really Choti Rani sa? And what about you? Aren't you after him too? You think he is dumb enough not to realize that ?" Ajabde's words shocked Dheer Bai.
" How dare you? Just how dare you commoner girl talk to me like that?"
" You insulted my people, my blood Ranisa. I just told the truth."
" Ajabde!" Hansa Bai slapped her daughter, shocking her. " Don't you know how to talk to a queen?" Hansa Bai was scared.
" Touch my feet and say sorry."
"I won't Ranisa, I did nothing wrong." Ajabde stood her ground. She was like his shadow, exactly like him. Dheerbai couldn't help but think they were so perfect.
" Ajabde!" Hansa's shout made Jaivanta walk in.
" Say sorry," Dheer replied.
" What is happening here? Ajabde?" Jaivanta asked for an explanation. Ajabde told her everything as Dheerbai stood there.
" Dheerbai I think you started this."
" Jija you always think I am wrong. This girl has no manners. Being a samanth putri she spoke to me like this, if she marries Kunwarsa he will be doomed." Her words made Ajabde leave the room.
Yes, she had lost her temper in this game of cold war. She was not used to such complex relationships.

Hansa Bai was crying continuously. She knew this news will reach Rana Udai Singh and the consequences will fall on Raoji. More, she was worried for her daughter and Kunwar Pratap's future. Jaivanta Bai asked Sajja Bai, " Where is Ajabde? I have to make this right."
" I can't find her Jija!" The whole palace looked for her in vain.
Ratan found a letter addressed to her.

" Dearest Ratan, I just want to get out of this complicated life. I always loved things simple, I can't pretend things are perfect when they are not. I am going to Guruji's Ashram for a few days until Kunwar Pratap goes back to Chittor. I see no hope, Ratan. Don't tell them where I am. Am just hurt, because I know I hurt Maa sa and Ranima. They had so many expectations from me. I let them down. I let Kunwarsa down. Your Jija."

Ratan destroyed the letter immediately. Dheer Bai was scared, this girl ran away now she will get all the sympathy. She knew her game well...

Pratap was shocked to come back to a dark and silent Mahal. Ratan greeted them.
" Where is your Maa sa?" Raoji asked.
" She is in her room Daata, ill."
" What happened?"
" Woh, Jija..."
" Ajabde? What Happened?" Udai Singh enquired.
" She left, without telling anyone after Dheer Bai insulted her," Jaivanta replied to a shocked Ranaji.
" Left? Where?" Pratap was visibly angry.
" I don't know I swear!" Ratan's face said she was lying.

" Ratan!" His voice scared her. He was in her room.
"Ji?"
" tell me where she is."
" I don't know."
" I know you are lying."
" Jija doesn't want you to know."
" It's an order, tell me."
" Guruji's Ashram."
" Whose?"
" Raghavendra Rathore." The name shocked Pratap. His Guruji? What was Ajabde doing there? He went to Ranima.
" I am sorry Pratap, I couldn't do anything." He punched his fist on the wall.
" She will pay for this when I return."
" Where are you going?"
" To find Ajabde, and bring her back!" He rode off angry.



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  প্রতিশ্রুতি  বন্দিতা মা কে জড়িয়ে ধরে যেন প্রাণ ফিরে পায়।  “ভাল আছিস?” জিগেস করে সুমতি। বন্দিতা হঠাৎ খেয়াল করে আগের মতো তার মুখ দেখেই তার মা আর তার মনের অবস্থা বুঝতে পারেন না। তার সাথে হঠাৎ মনে পরে কত অনায়াসে অনিরুদ্ধ বোঝে যে তার মন খারাপ। একবার জিজ্ঞেস করেছিল সে স্বামীকে, কি করে তিনি বোঝেন তার মন খারাপ। ছোট বন্দিতাকে তার মতন করে বুঝিয়েছিলেন তার স্বামী। আজ বন্দিতা বড় হয়েছে কিন্তু সেই প্রশ্ন সে আর করতে পারেনা। বন্দিতাকে খাটিয়ার উপর বসিয়ে এর মধ্যেই সুমতি যায় তার জন্য মুড়ি মুড়কি আনতে। বন্দিতার চোখ পরে পায়ের নূপুরের উপর। তিনি বলেছিলেন “তুমি খুশি হলে তোমার নূপুরের আওয়াজ অন্যরকম হয়, আর তোমার মন খারাপ হলে অন্যরকম।” বন্দিতা নূপুরটা বাজিয়ে দেখেছিল সেদিন। আজকে সে জানে পার্থক্য তার নূপুরের শব্দে নয়, অনিরুদ্ধের পর্যবেক্ষণ শক্তিতে। আবার কেন তার কথা ভাবছে সে? বাড়ি এসেছে মায়ের কাছে। আর ভাববে না সে, হয়তো দু তিন দিন পর ত্রিলোচনবাবু পাঠাবেন বিহারী কে বন্দিতাকে বাড়ি নিয়ে যেতে, ততদিন মায়ের কাছে একটু শান্তিতে থাকুক না সে।  দুপুরে আম দুধ দিয়ে ভাত দেয় তাকে সুমতি। “তোর প্রিয় খাবার দেখ, মাম...

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Aniruddha could not work all day. It started raining heavily outside, the curtains of the room swayed in the gusty wind, and things around the room toppled over. Koeli came to pick them up, to see if he wanted to eat anything but Aniruddha wanted to be left alone. Countless questions and fears raced through his mind. Bondita never went home like she did that day. Rather, once a year, even before Jamai Sasti, she checked the household chores a hundred times. If Batuk had a test, if someone was sick, she was reluctant to go. She just packed a bundle so quickly and left for her mother’s place. Had she distanced herself from Aniruddha? Was it his fault? Anirudha started thinking. Could she not take him as a husband because he pushed her away and hurt her? Aniruddha repented for his actions. If indeed Bondita denied their relationship knowing the truth behind it, could she be blamed? But was that why she was pretending to be asleep even though she was awake that night? What did she think ab...

Promises

Bondita hugged her mother as if to find herself again.  "Are you okay?" Sumati smiled. Bondita suddenly noticed that her mother couldn't understand her state of mind just by looking at her face anymore. With that, she suddenly remembered how easily Aniruddha understood that she was upset. Once she asked her husband how he understood things without her saying it. Her husband explained to little Bondita in a way she would understand. Now that Bondita was grown up she could perhaps never ask him that question again. Meanwhile, Sumati hurried to get her some Muri Murki while she sat down on the bed. Bondita's eyes fell on her feet. He had said, "When you are happy, your anklet sounds different, and when you are sad, it is different." Bondita stirred her anklets unmindfully. Today she knew the difference was not in the sound of her Nupur but in Aniruddha's powers of observation. Why was she thinking about him? She came home to her mother. And she would not th...

Choices

The winter rains and gusty wind were unpleasant weather for Adhiraja Ishaan Dev. The Suryapalian capital was far more tropical weather of the plain lands than that of Neelambargarh, situated on a plateau rather close to the Heemdevi. It rained more in Neelambargarh, and the winters were cold. The wine did very little to comfort him as he kept the lamps of his chamber lit in an attempt to feel warmer. On the contrary, he observed how Priyambada complained that the winter isn't cold enough. It had been a quarter of the moon cycle since Maharani Priyambada met Kumari Advika of Mait. Although Ishaan Dev was eager to know what the ladies did talk about, he wasn’t sure whether to ask Priyambada. So he waited for her to tell him something, anything! But Priyambada seemed to act like the meeting never happened. She didn’t even disclose anything to Smriti as per Kumar Viraj. Ishaan Dev was perplexed. What was talked of in the meeting? Worse, did Advika mention him? She must have. The last t...

Going Home

Bondita's Mama came to Tulsipur to meet his daughter. He was a poor man and wore a short dhoti and a Batik shirt. It was wrong to come empty-handed to the daughter's house, so two pots of sweets accompanied him. Reluctantly, he had to go to Roy Chowdhury's house. They were the Zamindar of Tulsipur, the master of the father-in-law of Sampoorna, they needed to be respected. Apart from that, the fate of the sister and niece who he was reluctant to shelter and spent day and night rebuking them about had turned, the same sister now handed over some money to him by the end of the month, because of the kindness of Aniruddha Babu. He did not have the luxury of pushing Lakshmi away. Hence it was necessary to come to the landlord's house to meet his niece. In their house servants also dressed better than him; Look at the fate of the girl . Where he had arranged for her to stay in a corner of an old man's house, now Bondita was living a queen’s life.  Zamindar Trilochan Roy Ch...

Uttor

  উত্তর   সারাদিন কাজে মন বসেনা অনিরুদ্ধর। বাইরে অঝোরে বৃষ্টি হতে থাকে, ঝোড়োও হওয়ায় ঘরের পর্দা দোলে , জিনিসপত্র এলোমেলো হয়ে যায়। কয়েলি আসে ছোট মালিকের জিনিস গুছিয়ে দিতে, তিনি কিছু খাবেন কিনা শুধোতে কিন্তু তাকে চলে যেতে বলে ঘরে খিল দেয় অনিরুদ্ধ। একা থাকতে চায়। তার মনে আনাগোনা করে অসংখ প্রশ্ন এবং আশংকা। যে ভাবে বন্দিতা স্বেচ্ছায় মায়ের কাছে গেল আজ, সেরকম সে কোনদিন যায়না । বরং বছরে একবার জামাই ষষ্টিতে যাওয়ার আগেও একশো বার বাড়ির কাজকম্ম দেখে শুনে যায়। বটুকের পরীক্ষা, কারুর শরীর খারাপ হলে তো কথাই নেই। সেই বন্দিতা আজ হঠাৎ বাড়ি যাবে বলে কি তাড়াতাড়ি পোটলা গুছিয়েছে। এতই কি দূরে চলে গেছে সে অনিরুদ্ধের থেকে? তা কি তার নিজের দোষে? ভাবতে থাকে অনিরুদ্ধ। সে দূরে সরিয়ে দিয়েছে বলে অভিমান না কি তাকে স্বামী রূপে গ্রহণ করতে পারেনা বন্দিতা? অনিরুদ্ধ পশ্চাতাপ করে। সত্যি যদি বন্দিতা সব জেনে তাদের সম্পর্ক অস্বীকার করে, তাকে কি দোষ দেওয়া চলে? তবে কি তাই সেদিন রাত্রে জেগে থাকা সত্যেও ঘুমের অভিনয় করছিল সে? কি ভেবেছে সে অনিরুদ্ধের ব্যাপারে? কেন চারিদিক বাছবিচার না করে এমন করল অনিরুদ্ধ? নিজের প্রতিজ্ঞ...

Adornment

The rainy night had given way to a rather pleasant summer morning in Suryapali. The temperature was no longer soaring and a gentle breeze blew through the plains of Suryapali. The sun peeped out through the floating clouds occasionally. Priyambada walked into her chambers after a luncheon to find trays laid with drapes and jewellery, waiting for her. “The Maharani sent this for some celebration in the evening,” Vrinda spoke, bowing at her mistress who nodded silently. Priyambada eyed the trays and exhaled. She wasn’t sure if anyone talked to Ishaan Dev about the rituals. She dismissed Vrinda and decided to read the scripture. As Priyambada sat down on the edge of the bed, scripture in hand, her thoughts travelled to the happenings of the night and she inhaled as her throat felt dry. Why did he stop? Did he feel that he had offended her? Priyambada wondered. She walked up to the attire laid down for the evening and picked up the drape wrapped into a bodice and wrap-around skirt. They w...

Ghore Fera

  ঘরে ফেরা   বন্দিতার মামা মেয়ের সাথে দেখা করতে আসেন তুলশিপুর। গরিবের ঘরের ছা পোষা চেহারা তার, পরনে খাটো ধুতি ও ছিটের জামা। মেয়ের শশুরবাড়িতে খালি হাতে আসা অন্যায় তাই দুটি মিষ্টির হাড়ি সাথে। অনিচ্ছা সত্তেও রায় চৌধুরী বাড়িতে যেতে হয় তাকে। তারা তুলশিপুরের জমিদার, সম্পূর্ণার শ্বশুরের মনিব, তাদের সম্মান করে চলা মঙ্গল। তা ছাড়া যে বোন  ও বোনঝিকে আশ্রয় দেওয়া নিয়ে দিনরাত কথা শোনাতে বাঁধতো না তার, সেই বোন  এখন মাস গেলে তার হাতে টাকা তুলে দেয়, অনিরুদ্ধ বাবুর দয়ায়। হাতে আসা লক্ষ্মী পায়ে ঠেলার বিলাসিতা করার মত মুরোদ নয় তার। অগত্যা বোনঝির সাথে দেখা করতে জমিদার বাড়ি আসা। এদের বাড়ির চাকররাও  তার থেকে ভাল পোশাক পরে; ভাগ্য দেখো মেয়েটার। কোথায় কোন বুড়োর বাড়ির এক কোণে পরে থাকার ব্যবস্থা করেছিল সে, এখন বন্দিতা রাজরানী।  জমিদার ত্রিলোচন রায় চৌধুরীর যাকে পছন্দ নয় তাকে তিনি সেটা বুঝিয়ে দিতে দ্বিধা বোধ করেন না। বন্দিতার মামা তার তেমন এক অপছন্দের পাত্র । বৌমার মুখে তিনি যা  শুনেছেন তারপর বৌমার তাদের প্রতি টান দেখে আশ্চর্য হন ত্রিলোচন বাবু। কিন্তু কুটুম্ব তারা। হাতে কর...

Trust

Ishaan Dev woke up at the sound of the hourly bells and trumpets and found himself alone in bed. It took him some time to realise that he had perhaps overslept as he looked confused, half asleep first at the hourglass and then at the sun rays coming into the chambers through the swaying curtains. He sat up to suddenly remember the happenings of the night, as his eyes travelled to the blood stain on the sheet and he sat in contemplation for a good few minutes. He finally had his moment with Priyambada and it was nothing like he had imagined it to be. A part of him that yearned to touch her and taste her was satisfied enough to realise that his longing for her was not only physical. When bodies entwined in the union, and he had pushed himself in, as he had with a hundred other women before her, something in him felt a different sense of completeness and fulfilment that he realised was missing from his life. He had seen Priyambada react to the sensations that were completely new to her, m...

Gratefulness

Aniruddha did not return home that night, he informed on the telephone that he was stuck in urgent work so he would return home the next day after spending the night at the client's house. Bondita spent a sleepless night. What would she tell Barrister Babu? And why would he believe it? She was lost in her thoughts twisting and turning in bed all night. She was hurt. Was her husband so reluctant towards their relationship that he did not wish to return home because of her? Once he was busy with some work and was pacing in the study room. Bondita was a child. Her Jetha Shoshur Moshai had taught her to serve her husband. She used to see Bihari take a cup of tea to the study room every day. Despite Bihari's resistance, she picked up the cup of tea that day.  "Don't do this, Ginnima ," Bihari was terrified. “Barrister Babu does not like to talk or be disturbed during his work. If he gets angry, I will lose my job.” Bondita ignored his words and entered the study room w...