Protidaan: Chapter Seven

Shobha had borrowed some books which she came to return to Lata’s house and found her tending to some flowers she had planted on tiny pots outside. Lata looked up at her and smiled, offering her some refreshments which she refused as she handed the books back to Lata. Her hands were dirty, so she called on her cousin who came running to take the books from Shobha and went inside. Shobha sat down beside her on the ground.

“Since when did you take up gardening?” She asked.
“Jethima taught me a long time back, but I didn’t find the time. Now the exams are over and…” Shobha shook her head.
“How do you like everything she taught you? How is it even possible?” She asked with a slight hint of doubt in her voice. Lata’s hand stopped at the pot as she smiled faintly.
“It is not about liking Shobha, I … can’t explain to you… doing these makes me feel closer to…” She stopped at Shobha’s worried face.
“I sometimes wish you would live for yourself. And not dwell on the past, Lata.”
“I do…” Lata’s faint protest died as she spotted Kanai Da walking across the street.
“Didimoni, Didibhai has called you home.” He said. Lata immediately got up to wash her hands.
“I have to go, we can chat in the evening. Didi has asked for me.”
“See.” Shobha shrugged. “Why do you prioritise them over everyone else?”
“Because they are family to me, Shobha.” Lata smiled faintly “They are the closest I have. You won’t understand.”

Snehalata eyed her name once over the first page of the new novel Didi had gifted her. To everyone around her, she was Lata. But sometimes, like a distant story of another girl, she remembered her father, dotingly calling her Sneha instead of Lata. She remembered both her parents in bits and pieces and shed a tear or two only on Bhaifota or rakhi. Prabhash was most missed. At first, she was probably angry with her father for leaving her like that. But then, one day, Jethaima held her close and made her understand that people reacted to tragedies in their own way and healed in their own time. She reassured her that once healed, her father would one day magically appear back for her. She had believed so for three years. Three years until Jethaima herself couldn’t heal from the tragedy and left her. Her trail of thoughts, emerging from the name Didi had written for her, was interrupted as Bibha put some more books on the floor prompting her to look up.

“Here are all my old romance novels.” Bibha smiled, “You can read them during the holidays.”

Lata’s hand stopped at them as she remembered something.

“No Didi.”Lata stood up “You just gave me a new one. Let me finish that.” Bibha frowned at her words.

“I know the speed in which you read Lata. It will take you a day. Take these home.” She insisted as Lata looked unsure.

“What happened?” Bibha asked with a frown. Lata narrated her ordeal of bumping into Deb da at the library. Bibha was silent for a moment, and then she laughed.

“Oh please. What does Dada know of such things? You aren’t a child anymore.” She made Lata look up as she smiled. “Love happens exactly like it is written in books.”

“It does?” Lata tried to hide the doubt in her voice. One thing she had grown up learning was to treat Deb Da’s words as almost universal truths. He read books, he was aware and he knew things.

“Of course it does. It is the very lingering, anticipating, jittery feeling they speak of.” Bibha blushed.

“Have you felt it, Didi?” Bibha was startled by Lata’s question. She gestured at her to lower her voice and ran to close the door. Lata frowned, sitting down on the edge of Bibha’s bed.

“Promise this stays between us,” Bibhabati spoke as she nodded.

“What?” Lata’s eyebrows were raised. “You mean our new teacher Kalikinkar Das?” She gasped.

“Yes, last year when he joined I was in my last few months of schooling there. We instantly connected over our love for novels. He wants to marry me.” Bibhabati blushed. “I tell you, Lata, it is just like the novels. He is like the people you read of in Tagore’s…”

“But then why are we hiding this?” Lata interrupted, a little suspiciously.

“ The world doesn’t understand.” Bibha shook her head “He says he needs to earn more than just be a temporary teacher for him to face the family and ask for my hand. His lifestyle is quite simple and his family hails from Bardhaman. Thamma is also very staunch about caste.” Her face turned grim due to the uncertainties of the future. Lata held her hand.

“But then see how in novels, love conquers all Didi,” Lata spoke in reassurance as Bibha smiled. “Let Kali dada find a good job, then we can talk to Deb da first, he may convince Thamma and Borda.”

“Will you help me then?” Bibha held her hand. “I will write to him and he will write back. All you have to do is slip the letters into your notebooks and hand them over to him at school. You see, ever since I stopped going out, we haven’t been communicating like before. Even when we meet in secret in the forest…”

“In the forest?” Lata gasped. “Deb da says the Naxals stay there, in hiding. It is not safe.” Bibha smiled.

“I feel safe with him. You will understand when you fall in love, Lata.” Lata’s heart skipped a beat. Fall in love? How does that happen? Like one fine day, you see someone and your heart flutters? Perhaps.

“Will you help me?” Bibha asked, almost pleading. “I have not confided in anyone else about this, not even my friends. They all know him. But I can trust only you.” Lata nodded, a little scared, a little excited. She at fifteen thus became a messenger of a love story. She wondered if after years she could perhaps take a little credit with Bibha for helping her out or even perhaps feel less guilty about hiding everything she now knew from everyone who trusted her including Shobha and Deb Da.

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Protisruti

প্রতিশ্রুতি বন্দিতা মা কে জড়িয়ে ধরে যেন প্রাণ ফিরে পায়। “ভাল আছিস?” জিগেস করে সুমতি। বন্দিতা হঠাৎ খেয়াল করে আগের মতো তার মুখ দেখেই তার মা আর তার মনের অবস্থা বুঝতে পারেন না। তার সাথে হঠাৎ মনে পরে কত অনায়াসে অনিরুদ্ধ বোঝে যে তার মন খারাপ। একবার জিজ্ঞেস করেছিল সে স্বামীকে, কি করে তিনি বোঝেন তার মন খারাপ। ছোট বন্দিতাকে তার মতন করে বুঝিয়েছিলেন তার স্বামী। আজ বন্দিতা বড় হয়েছে কিন্তু সেই প্রশ্ন সে আর করতে পারেনা। বন্দিতাকে খাটিয়ার উপর বসিয়ে এর মধ্যেই সুমতি যায় তার জন্য মুড়ি মুড়কি আনতে। বন্দিতার চোখ পরে পায়ের নূপুরের উপর। তিনি বলেছিলেন “তুমি খুশি হলে তোমার নূপুরের আওয়াজ অন্যরকম হয়, আর তোমার মন খারাপ হলে অন্যরকম।” বন্দিতা নূপুরটা বাজিয়ে দেখেছিল সেদিন। আজকে সে জানে পার্থক্য তার নূপুরের শব্দে নয়, অনিরুদ্ধের পর্যবেক্ষণ শক্তিতে। আবার কেন তার কথা ভাবছে সে? বাড়ি এসেছে মায়ের কাছে। আর ভাববে না সে, হয়তো দু তিন দিন পর ত্রিলোচনবাবু পাঠাবেন বিহারী কে বন্দিতাকে বাড়ি নিয়ে যেতে, ততদিন মায়ের কাছে একটু শান্তিতে থাকুক না সে। দুপুরে আম দুধ দিয়ে ভাত দেয় তাকে সুমতি। “তোর প্রিয় খাবার দেখ, মাম...

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উত্তর সারাদিন কাজে মন বসেনা অনিরুদ্ধর। বাইরে অঝোরে বৃষ্টি হতে থাকে, ঝোড়োও হওয়ায় ঘরের পর্দা দোলে , জিনিসপত্র এলোমেলো হয়ে যায়। কয়েলি আসে ছোট মালিকের জিনিস গুছিয়ে দিতে, তিনি কিছু খাবেন কিনা শুধোতে কিন্তু তাকে চলে যেতে বলে ঘরে খিল দেয় অনিরুদ্ধ। একা থাকতে চায়। তার মনে আনাগোনা করে অসংখ প্রশ্ন এবং আশংকা। যে ভাবে বন্দিতা স্বেচ্ছায় মায়ের কাছে গেল আজ, সেরকম সে কোনদিন যায়না । বরং বছরে একবার জামাই ষষ্টিতে যাওয়ার আগেও একশো বার বাড়ির কাজকম্ম দেখে শুনে যায়। বটুকের পরীক্ষা, কারুর শরীর খারাপ হলে তো কথাই নেই। সেই বন্দিতা আজ হঠাৎ বাড়ি যাবে বলে কি তাড়াতাড়ি পোটলা গুছিয়েছে। এতই কি দূরে চলে গেছে সে অনিরুদ্ধের থেকে? তা কি তার নিজের দোষে? ভাবতে থাকে অনিরুদ্ধ। সে দূরে সরিয়ে দিয়েছে বলে অভিমান না কি তাকে স্বামী রূপে গ্রহণ করতে পারেনা বন্দিতা? অনিরুদ্ধ পশ্চাতাপ করে। সত্যি যদি বন্দিতা সব জেনে তাদের সম্পর্ক অস্বীকার করে, তাকে কি দোষ দেওয়া চলে? তবে কি তাই সেদিন রাত্রে জেগে থাকা সত্যেও ঘুমের অভিনয় করছিল সে? কি ভেবেছে সে অনিরুদ্ধের ব্যাপারে? কেন চারিদিক বাছবিচার না করে এমন করল অনিরুদ্ধ? নিজের প্রতিজ্ঞ...

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Ishaan Dev woke up at the sound of the hourly bells and trumpets and found himself alone in bed. It took him some time to realise that he had perhaps overslept as he looked confused, half asleep first at the hourglass and then at the sun rays coming into the chambers through the swaying curtains. He sat up to suddenly remember the happenings of the night, as his eyes travelled to the blood stain on the sheet and he sat in contemplation for a good few minutes. He finally had his moment with Priyambada and it was nothing like he had imagined it to be. A part of him that yearned to touch her and taste her was satisfied enough to realise that his longing for her was not only physical. When bodies entwined in the union, and he had pushed himself in, as he had with a hundred other women before her, something in him felt a different sense of completeness and fulfilment that he realised was missing from his life. He had seen Priyambada react to the sensations that were completely new to her, m...

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Aniruddha did not return home that night, he informed on the telephone that he was stuck in urgent work so he would return home the next day after spending the night at the client's house. Bondita spent a sleepless night. What would she tell Barrister Babu? And why would he believe it? She was lost in her thoughts twisting and turning in bed all night. She was hurt. Was her husband so reluctant towards their relationship that he did not wish to return home because of her? Once he was busy with some work and was pacing in the study room. Bondita was a child. Her Jetha Shoshur Moshai had taught her to serve her husband. She used to see Bihari take a cup of tea to the study room every day. Despite Bihari's resistance, she picked up the cup of tea that day. "Don't do this, Ginnima ," Bihari was terrified. “Barrister Babu does not like to talk or be disturbed during his work. If he gets angry, I will lose my job.” Bondita ignored his words and entered the study room w...

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