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The Last Ride

Ajabdeh woke up with a heavy head and still felt sleepy. She sat on the bed and drew the blanket over her bare shoulders as she remembered the night. A smile curved her lips as she looked out at the midday sun. She suddenly looked alarmed. It was mid-day. They were supposed to leave after breakfast. Why did nobody wake her up? Where was he? She quickly got dressed. Her mind was running. So many things were said and done the day before. She needed to talk to him.

She was greeted at the door by the packed luggage and Kasturi. 

"I packed your luggage for you, ma'am. Sir said I should pack you some snacks so I made sandwiches."

"Where is he?" She asked looking around. 

"He is yet to come downstairs."

"Why did you not wake me up, Kasturi? We were supposed to leave two hours ago." She narrowed her eyes at the clock. 

"I am sorry ma'am. Sir instructed us to let you sleep."

She smiled thanking her for her service and insisting she took a handsome tip before she turned at the sound of footsteps on the stairs. Pratap had his aviator glasses on and walked past her towards the car.

"Put the luggage in Bahadur." He said to the guard who did as he was told. 

Ajabdeh silently went up to her side of the car and opened the door. 

"Put her luggage on top." She heard him say. "she will be dropped off first." Ajabdeh inhaled. 

She glanced across at him driving once they were on the highway. 

"I send Mrs Sekhawat a thank you note and a bouquet." She spoke.

"I called Heer. She will be there when you arrive at the apartment. She will help you clean up and settle." He turned on the radio as she looked out of the window. 

"We need to talk," Ajabdeh said almost in a murmur. The music was too loud. He didn't hear her. Or he pretended not to. He hadn't seen her eye to eye even once. 

"Do you want sandwiches?" She asked a little louder. 

"I am not hungry." He shook his head indifferently. Ajabdeh decided it was best to be quiet. 


The car stopped at her old apartment. Ajabdeh could see Heer wave at her on the driveway. 

"I will take the bags inside." Heer insisted, forcing a smile as her face looked pale. Ajabdeh nodded in silence and looked back at the man who handed the bags over to her sister. 

"I…" Ajabdeh spoke as Pratap cleared his throat. "I will see you around. Drop the papers by my office. I will sign them." Ajabdeh looked up at his words. He looked away. "whatever makes you happy." He walked back to the car and drove off. Ajabdeh stood there watching his car leave. 


Jaivanta's face looked pale as she exchanged glances with her worried husband. Her son was home. Alone. Shakti was about to follow Pratap up to his room as Udai gestured to him to stop. 

"Leave him alone." His words were firm. 

"I should talk to Ajabdeh first thing tomorrow," Jaivanta spoke concerned.

"Don't you dare do that! I will visit her in a few days. Leave it to me." Udai spoke. "unlike you, I will support them if they are happier apart." Jaivanta looked away. 


Pratap rushed into his bedroom and slammed the door behind him. Then he sat down on the floor, hugging his knees close to his chest as tears flowed down his cheeks. He had lost her. He looked up at the pictures on the wall. The wedding day. The honeymoon selfie. The candids of her with animals at the rescue centre. His vision blurred. He held on to the nearest cushion he found close to his mouth and let out a silent scream. Ajabdeh was gone and it was all his fault. He perhaps didn't ever find it important to say what he felt than show it. Now in his desperate attempt to stop her, his words perhaps lacked value to her feelings. He was too late.


The moment Ajabdeh entered the freshly painted apartment the smell of fresh paint gave her a headache. Even lunch and a nap didn't help. When she woke up it was raining outside. She popped a pill and stood on the balcony as Heer made tea.

"What would you like to have for dinner Jija?"

"He said he loves me." She said almost in a murmur.

"What?" Heer looked clueless.

"He said he loves me." Ajabdeh smiled a little surprised.

"And you thought he didn't?" Heer looked shocked. "of course he loves you."

"But… Heer." Ajabdeh looked out at the scene. "I didn't say it back." She looked alarmed. "That is why...that is why he left me."

"You are not making any sense Jija. He didn't leave you. You told him to."

"You don't understand. " Ajabdeh shook her head. "he was there all along. He never said it. I missed the signs waiting for the words." Heer shook her head clueless. "What did I do Heer?"


Pratap sat staring at the wall. He was tired of crying, and hungry because he skipped lunch and dinner and hadn't stepped out of his room since he arrived. Even Shakti couldn't get him to open the door. "Leave me alone please." He had insisted. There he was. In the cold dark room alone. His eyes dried up from all the tears. He couldn't close his eyes even for a second. Her face, her words, the feeling of her skin on his came haunting back. The previous night, for a very brief moment he had thought that he had convinced her. That she was happy with him. She did make a move. She did hug him. But then she said she would never forget it. Their last night. What was he thinking? He banged his forehead against his hand in utter frustration.





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